There have been times in my life where I was scared and didn’t do the work.
Scared to go places, scared to write, scared to talk to people, scared to speak up for me – basically scared of everything. As a result of this, I wouldn’t grow. I wouldn’t challenge myself to move and learn and be the best me that I could be. In 2015, my life was at a low. I was still making some sort of moves, but overall I was the epitome of existing. I followed my routine of going to school, going home, and going to work. At that time, the spirit of depression was also taking a toll on my life. I was unhappy, unsatisfied and plain tired of being stuck in the same routine year after year.
It was around the spring time when I started to contemplate about the idea of spending my summer in Georgia at a community college taking a couple of classes to refocus and determine what I was doing with my life and what I wanted to do with my life. I spoke with my Mom about the idea and she always encouraged me to go. In fact – she was the one who suggested it. She could see that I was struggling with so much and she didn’t want to see me not reach my full potential. I remember sitting with her on the couch in the living room having a heart to heart. I told her that I didn’t want to regress, I didn’t want to be mediocre but yet I didn’t want to regret not giving myself a chance – a chance to be great.
Do you know what I did? Right after my spring semester at UT Arlington ended, I moved to Georgia.
It’s been over a year and I have my associates degree, I am now two semesters away from graduating with my bachelor’s (!!!) and although there have been bumps in the road, I am on the path to living a life where I’m not just existing but actually living!
SCARED? DO WORK.
Write a list of where you are now and where you want to be. What is stopping you? Are you scared to move? Are you scared to commit to yourself? What is hindering you from moving forward and being the best you that you can be? We only have one life to live – I know you may be scared, but girl do work. Make your dreams your reality.